Seriously? Tired of feeling homeless. On the other hand, I like not having to worry about due dates. On the other other hand, I'm starting to miss some people. Specifically my boyfriend. I am getting horny as FUCK.

Preemptive answer: Not living with Kankurou, thx.

I'm hungover, I don't have any money, and I'm bored out of my motherfucking mind.

...

Hey, there's no one in that triple-x store, is there?

Hey, I...








what?

Whatever happened to that tingling feeling you get after good sex?

But oh, the things a pierced man can do to a girl...

( Alanis Morissette - Wunderkind )

Another Christmas party tonight, another chance to get drunk. Last night was...interesting. Thank you Naruto, TenTen.

Thanks to all of my friends for putting up with my moping, depressive self.

I'm sorry last night couldn't be better, Naruto.

oh, brother I can't, I can't get through
I've been trying hard to reach you,
'cos I don't know what to do
oh, brother I can't believe it's true
I'm so scared about the future
( and I want to talk to you... )

so you don't know where you're going but you wanna talk
and you feel like you're going where you've been before
and tell anyone who'll listen that you feel ignored
( nothing's really making any sense no more... )

are you lost or incomplete?
do you feel like a puzzle
you can't find your missing piece?

((OOC: YSI hates me and doesn't want to work, so if you want the song - and you do - IM me and I'll transfer it to you via AIM))

Today's Plan:

- Hiding under the covers watching judge shows all morning.
- Wheel of Fortune.
- Looking over some preliminary notes and general angsting at the café.
- Picking Gaara up from school.
- Cuddle time with Kirikiri.
- Christmas Party at Nori's, where I will get thoroughly sloshed into the Christmas spirit.

Oh yeah. The exciting life of me.

((OOC: Temari will be at the café during the afternoon/evening EST, if anyone feels like barging in and hanging out with questioning her.))

We broke up.

Don't ask me about it.

I'm going to go smoke some pot.

The end.

( the breakdown... )

Breaking Benjamin - "Who Wants to Live Forever?" (Queen Cover)

I think I'm broken.


Why can't I feel anymore?


( an im with shikamaru... )

Adam Pascal & Julia Murney - "You Want To Lose Your Only Friend?" and "Nobody's Side" ((WMV file))

( lyrics )

I've always kind of wondered why people enjoy going to these formal events. I mean, you spend all this time getting dolled up and shit, and it's clearly just an exercise in perpetuating popularity. Like, I got invited to the prom when I was a sophomore in high school, right? I wore one of those stupid dresses, with the shoes that hurt my feet, and we went out to dinner and then he drove us to the prom where he showed off to all his dumb friends and all anybody cared about was who won prom queen and getting laid.

I never did know who won prom queen.

And in the end, does it really matter who won? I mean, 10 years from now when you're at your high school reunion, do you really want the thing that people remember you for be a stupid plastic tiara?

I guess it's still better than what I'll be remembered for.


I'm going to go smoke some of Kankuro's pot and listen to Cream and Jimi Hendrix. That always makes me feel better...

( lyrics & download... )

( hilariously appropriate... )

Because, really, what was she doing there?

I'm not trying to be mean, I just need to get something off of my chest.

( the word of the day is... )

Now that all that's been said, I'd just like to say that my best friend is a total bitch and doesn't know when to shut up. But she's still my best friend. So I don't know what's going to happen there. She'll have to apologize, profusely. She's hurt me and what's more important, she verbally went after Shikamaru, very directly trying to hurt him, and what's even worse than that is I couldn't say anything until it was too late. I just sat there, dumbfounded, like watching a lady at a Nascar race get hit in the face with a tire. It's like it goes in slow motion, and you have no way of stopping it, even though you're there. All you can do is try to shield yourself and hope you don't get too fucked up when that tire smacks you. So...I got fucking wailed in the face with a Goodyear. I can't say I'm surprised that it happened, I just wish it didn't happen when it did or how it did. But like Uncle always said, you can wish in one hand and shit in the other - see which fills up first. Wishing is useless.

Anyway, Shikamaru did come home today. So that was nice. Until the whole Nori thing. But before that, it was nice. We had a lovely time, sipping tea and eating crumpets. That's what we always do when we're together...*looks suspicious*. Okay, that's a horrible lie. His father left porn on his computer and we watched it. AHAHAA~ VICTORY!! I finally got Shika to watch porn. It got boring after a while, though. It wasn't that interesting.

( IM with Shika... )

So...Shikamaru has his whole house to himself for a while. Both of his parents are out of town. And I haven't seen him in a week, so don't expect to see me around Suna any time soon. I'm all for making up lost time.

( arriving at the nara house/discovering adult entertainment... )

*cough* So...yeah.

( off to campus/shika learns something he never wanted to know... )

I'm tired, still, and cold, so I'm going to go back to bed. Ta, everyone!

I slept for, like, 14 hours last night. I have nothing else to do! I AM GOING INSANE. That damn manager...I am almost 100% sure I'm quitting my job in the next week. Oh, yeah, AND I'M NOT GETTING ANY. That might have something to do with it.

( I didn't need to take a quiz to tell you this, but whatever... )

I went out for ice cream the other day with Chouji, per...everyone's insistence? Well, no. Just his and Shika's. It was...okay. Chouji's an okay guy. So, yeah, it wasn't so bad. Except for me dumping everything on him. DAMN IT, stop provoking me into revealing things.

Ohh, and I finally told Shikamaru that I spoke to his father the other night, too. He wasn't too happy, especially when I wouldn't tell him what it was about. Apparently, neither did his father. ...Thanks, Nara-sama.

GAARA. WHAT THE HELL.

Today was boring. They're cutting back my hours at work because I'm not "personable" enough, and yeah I flipped off that one chick but it was because we went to high school together and she said something that made me want to do it. We never got along! That whore. So, anyway...I think I'm going to quit. But I can't until I find another job. Anybody know of any places hiring part-time?

These past few days have been rather common, except for the fact that I tracked down both Chouji and Sasori to talk with them. I lost my nerve after that, so I doubt I'll be speaking to Shikaku. Anyway...ehh, I guess things went as well as could be expected. The talk with Chouji wasn't easy - he's very defensive of Shikamaru, and so am I. But nobody got phsyically injured so I take it as a win for both parties involved. I guess.

( I practically had to hunt sasori down... )

So...I spoke with Shika today! He was online at that library near his grandmother's deer farm or whatever the hell his family does with deer. That was...not exciting. Shikamaru is too down on himself and doesn't really realize what other people think of him. So we had somewhat of an uncomfortable conversation.

( IM with Shikamaru... )

AAAAAACK! I'm going to explode with all this extra free time. And GAARA, I still need to talk to you.

I yanked this from Hinata-chan.

-- Tell me three things that you like about me.

-- Tell me three things you don't like about me.

-- Tell me three things that you wish for me to do in your honor.

-- Ask me three questions that are related to me...so you can get to know me better.

--Tell me three things I didn't know about you.

-- Pass it along in your own journal.

I'm over at Nori's right now, and in a little bit we're gonna go to a keg party. Since someone has to work all the time, and is leaving for a whole week, or blah blah blee blah, and I guess I am unable to have sex with see him tonight, I'm going to go out and drown my sorrows have fun.

Gaara, I'd like to talk to you soon. I wouldn't say it's important, but...maybe it's mildly important.

It's going to prove to be a boring week.

( baaa... )

La Vie Bohème B

( lyrics )

My day was boring. I slept.

My afternoon was the same. I cleaned.

My evening was...interesting, to say the least.

That's it.

If someone had told me spending all that time in the hospital and on campus would have gotten me sick, I probably would have gone home at some point this weekend.

*pale, eyes slightly unfocused as she lifts a hand up to her chest, looking like she's going to be sick*

Fucking Konoha campus. LEARN HOW TO TAKE ANTIBIOTICS, LOSERS.

*runs away to throw up*

When I'm done vomiting, there is a list of people I need to have..."chats" with.

Chouji is one.

Sasori is another.

...Nara-sama, I need to speak with you, too. *shudders*

Excuse me, but why did no one ever inform ME of the joys of extended foreplay?

Oh, and Shikamaru's in the hospital. Don't worry; mild concussion and a fractured nose. He'll be out by the end of the weekend. I'm pretty sure he plans on calling you today, Chouji.

More later when I have time. I'm on Nori's computer right now, since I got ready for classes in the dorm.

Shower shoes are the devil's plan to rid mankind of it's last threads of dignity.